A Shot in the Dark

This entry is dedicated to Kim... "I've always been the type to like simple lines and silhouettes, because as cliche as it sounds, less is always more..." -Kim You know what she's right. Hell, she's right the majority of the time, way more than I would like to let her think, but that's what best-friends do for each other. We absorb each others personal philosophies, and wave them in the air as one would do a quick-shot photo. I've deviated from the point of this entry. The topic of our conversation was coming into yourself, and being the reform fashion junkies that we are, we used clothing as a template for our transition into our more adult selves. It seems as though the older I get the less clothing I need to gratify my human existence. Cotton is becoming more and more needed in my wardrobe, leaving the more expensive purchases for later acquisition when my pockets will allow it. If Kim doesn't know anything she knows herself, and by knowing ...

What is it about past transgressions of the heart and mind, that binds us to situations that we've considered resolved? This entry is for the pure of heart, who feel that situations have tainted their souls in a sense, but the true redemption comes from acknowledging your position in the situation and moving on. Forgiveness is key... True character comes with experience, and in those experiences we see ourselves, truly for who we are; not what we describe. Living in this ever changing world can lead one to believe that old adages of wisdom have long died with the social norms of yesterday. However, as a developing human and adult, I've found that those old adages, if taken to heart, can absolve your life's of many hardships. What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us - Henry David Thoreau There will be many situations that will come to past, and are waiting in the future that must not change who we are internall...

For the Alfie's of the world.... "Sometimes you have to ask yourself, what's it all about," simply stated by Alfie (played by Jude Law) in the 2000ish remake of the classic movie 'Alfie'. Many times I do ask myself that, "What's it all about? I ask myself this question daily, but not in the same context of the movie, more so on the level of breaking habits that can have you chasing your "Tail"; for lack of better words. I, like most red-blooded American men relish in chasing my "Tail" to a certain degree, because after all, isn't this what we were put on this Earth to do? Especially being young, with great looks and a sense of style, why not chase your "Tail" every now and then... Ok, I am wearing out the "Tail" reference, but you do understand where I am coming from, right?! As a young man, sometimes I FEEL I want more than just the immediate gratification of a quick lay, but there is always anothe...

I love ending chapters in books and in life, because they give you so much more to look forward to in the future... I dedicate this entry to the departure of a neurotic perfectionist and the welcoming of a human being... I am without a doubt stepping in my own stride. Internally it has always been there, but currently I've come to grips why I was so out of tune with my flow, my mantra...my mojo. To simply state what "It" is, would be entirely out of my character, so I'm going to draw it out as I normally do things. In earlier post, if they were read thoroughly, you probably would have gathered that I was some type of toured soul who needed to purge himself of life's hardships, and your guess would be somewhat in the ballpark of where I really was mentally. My mind is a labyrinth of ideas, emotions and expectations, normally void of reason when I am in "search" of myself. I do, however, for sake of sanity try and keep a smile on my face to avoid th...

This entry is dedicated to all whom have fostered that poisonous relationships.... Erykah Badu has a song for you. Bag+Lady(Man)= Revelation ... Or as she says, "Pack Light... Ooooo....Ooooo" "You tried me again," is what echos in the caverns of my head, as I search for reason's unknown to me, as to why you are still in my life. I'm sure I'm not the only person in this world who has given 2nd and 3rd chances to that most undeserving person, who time and time again finds new ways to reinvent themselves as disappointments. I see harboring Toxic relationships as I see for people who work a dead end job; it leads to nowhere. Toxic relationships don't just fall in the romantic realm, but they can be your friends as well, to me which is worse. Being that most people who are considered friends are deserving of 2nd and 3rd chances, because lets face it your friends can cause some damage unintentionally in your life. However, those "Toxic" fr...

This day has finally come... 9/19/09 This entry is dedicated to My brother and his beautiful wife... Don't forget to make beautiful memories together... The entire week my mind was in a tailspin, I knew that he was ready, but was I ready to let him go. "This wedding was just announced yesterday," I pondered to myself as I scrambled to pack my bags. Those who know the Jackson brothers know that we are down for each other no matter what. If I could explain the bond we share with each other in one sentence, that sentence would never end... Embarking on this trip I knew that emotionally I was going to be tore down, because I was losing a piece of myself and it is the best thing for him. The silver lining to this cloud is that I've gained two sisters to torment, my brother and his wife started a new life together and I finally made it to the west coast after years of waiting. So I finally finished packing my 52lb suit case and I set off to old wes...

What is it about death that scares some of us?... This entry is dedicated to any and every person who has lost a loved one... While on Earth we have forgotten how small we are in this universe. We have forgotten that once upon a time we were bright stars in the sky that gave onlookers hope as they prayed for strength. We also have forgotten that we are the very thread that God used to build all that we know... Our life has a bigger purpose than meets the eye. I do believe that while on this Earth we must make the most of all that we know in life. Making the most of falling in love and heartbreak, laughing until you cry or crying until you laugh, also winning and losing... Loving someone is eternal and timeless; it never dies. Simply stated loving an individual outweighs any of our worldly possessions or any grudge that we hold near and dear to our heart. Again we are just a part of a whole. Love becomes that glue that bonds us to the next person, so therefore yes it is hard whe...