A Shot in the Dark

Originally authored in 2009 I just deleted the original intent for this article, because my perspective has changed for the direction of this article. I want to address my African American men. The first topic that I will like to address is that of Colin Kapernick's silent protest, and why did it take so long for our community as a whole to embrace the courage of this man. It totally annoys me to no end when someone stands for something that is right, and the greater majority, selfishly picks it apart as to say that "I kinda agree" but it's just not my cross to bear. That cross for Kapernick is that of a man who was just as tired as any other human, primarily a person of color, who had to read about the extreme cases of racial injustice in America. I refuse to rehash every instance of racial injustice that has happened in the past two years, because that would mean that I am writing to another reader who is living under a rock. I just can't understand why we

I am in a space that I haven't been in for a long time. This space is the expanded version of the freedom that I once felt in my 20's, but now in my 30's is outlined in a wisdom called cautiousness. It is a good thing for me to be myself, but also a little cautious in my life so I don't throw the baby out with the bath water. In my journey of the "other" I've found that things in life just aren't fair and that is perfectly fine with me, nor is everyone a potential positive influence [read: naive me] in my life. I own that I've put myself through the ringer with my boxed-in perceptions of life, and my interpretation of self; however that is the process of maturity. To see one's self in pure truth, or a more advanced truth than what was seen before. I'm so grateful that it has happened, and wasn't pushed to the back burner like some of my peers have done for themselves.  This slight judgment is rooted in an observation that I've co