Mistress Mad...

This post is dedicated to open ears...

Living in the now can leave you feeling drained and anger starts to fester.... which leads me to the current topic for your viewing pleasure...anger.

Personally, anger has become the mistress in my life and the bitch won't leave. She feeds off my emotion, leaves me at the drop of a dime, only to plague someone else who's happy. Deeply rooted in my thoughts, she has found her way into all accounts of my life....which sucks...

As of right now I have undertaken a quest to kill this nuisance... I've partly found that I have triggers that send me from zero to 60 or as I often phrase them, Donald Duck Quack Attacks if you can imagine the animation when I blow the hell up...

Anywho, one of the main triggers for me is personal space or others lack of respect for personal space.(Shot in the Dark) Let's face it some people have no clue of what personal space is, because they constantly have to have others in theirs. I am not that type of individual who delves into others lives, unless invited or who has to know what others are doing at all times of the day...just not my cup of tea...Boom Boo Pow the gun sounds as the trigger is pushed...

In all honesty, my affliction with personal space has festered deep in my soul, from either friends or family members, who I've experienced torn down and/or who tears down individuals with their sharp comments... it probably causes the most anger in my life right now, because I don't deal with it on a daily basis... It makes it hard to pursuit your own happiness when you constantly have to fend off the bullshit that people create everyday. I just want to live, pursue my endeavors and love like there is no tomorrow and as a young Black man in today's society that's asking to much. Hell that's considered whining to some critics... Well I say boo hoo...

As the words flow from my mind to this computer screen, it pains me to have to bring up anger but it's necessary. I've admitted it to myself and now out loud to the world. Mind your business!!! Especially those of you who have skeletons, because it's not a pretty sight when they knock on the door of your perfect life holding a mirror for you to stare in... just a thought.

Internal Resolution: Full Original Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

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