You're Toxic....

This entry is dedicated to all whom have fostered that poisonous relationships.... Erykah Badu has a song for you. Bag+Lady(Man)= Revelation... Or as she says, "Pack Light... Ooooo....Ooooo"

"You tried me again," is what echos in the caverns of my head, as I search for reason's unknown to me, as to why you are still in my life.

I'm sure I'm not the only person in this world who has given 2nd and 3rd chances to that most undeserving person, who time and time again finds new ways to reinvent themselves as disappointments.

I see harboring Toxic relationships as I see for people who work a dead end job; it leads to nowhere. Toxic relationships don't just fall in the romantic realm, but they can be your friends as well, to me which is worse. Being that most people who are considered friends are deserving of 2nd and 3rd chances, because lets face it your friends can cause some damage unintentionally in your life. However, those "Toxic" friends drain your soul and being, as a leech on the skin. They have no one but their own interest in mind and they are left to roam around this world without a thought of introspection.

Receiving the harsh treatment was a lesson learned in itself, because I suffered the dreaded karmatic circle that I'd put out. Having the epiphany of all the shit I had put up with was more painful than what I could imagine, because I pride myself on screening people before I let them in my life. Accepting that I've been had was a little easier, which lead to one of the most important aspects of the healing process, and that's letting the person(s) go. Sometimes we don't understand that we have to mentally depart and separate, before the initial healing takes place. For me it was actually vocalizing the crap that was smeared in my face time and time again. This makes the healing process better in the long run, because there are no questions as to why you and I can no longer be in each others lives.

I'm learning through experience, that in some instances people fool themselves into thinking that they are the problem, because they want to relationship to work...bullshit.

I've also learned through experience that what we do allow will become the blueprint for destruction in the future... true statement.

If you haven't listened to anything that I've stated thus far please listen to this....Leave!!!
It makes life that much easier and you are better without them. If you have to convince yourself that someone may be right for you in your life, it's a trap. Referencing an earlier entry, the best relationships aren't forced they just happen. Fostering bad relationships not only weigh you down, but it can become embedded in your psyche. Meaning, you may become so use to the bad treatment, which can lead you to miss the best thing in your life, because you had a cloudy vision...wipe those eyes.

So I send this message to the recently departed friend in my life... I wish you well, but I think it's best that we don't cross each others paths. It's best that we keep our distance so that we can move past this, or you will continue to dig yourself in a deeper abyss and then from there I can't help you.

In closing, let those people go, drop those bags and get the weight off your shoulder. Life is to short to dig an early grave for yourself and guess what will put you in the ground sooner than later? A heavy heart.